I'm not the girl that parents like. I'm not sure if that's who I want to be or if I even care. No I definitely care. How am I supposed to decide what kind of person I am? Or is that not a state that can be altered? People change themselves all the time, but isn't that due to a series of events or a predisposition? I'm not drifting away, I'm tugging on the cord. If only I knew what my lowest point was so I could see the end coming.

most of my life i was discouraged from expressing myself and exploring my own thoughts and feelings. now that i've been told i can think properly, i find i cannot think at all.