and..

why am i still OBSESSED with picking apart what went wrong? it's been MONTHS. i should have moved on.. and mostly i have.. but there are ghosts of conversations and events that come back and rear their ugly heads.

i guess i want what i can never have, an answer... an explanation as to why he did what he did and what the purpose is of lying all that time..

fuck him. fuck her. fuck everyone who ever thinks he's a good person in the remotest possible way.

everything was a lie.. something i failed to notice til now. why did i ever believe any bit of it? who knows...






fuck fuck FUCK!



fuck. it.


i will not let him ruin even one more nano second of my life.