i feel a little lost. i'm not sure what i'm doing or what i'm doing it for, or whether it'll be worth it in the end. i've forgotten a lot over the years, and i'm not sure i can ever regain it.

what could really justify these means?

i haven't quite opened up a crack/whorehouse yet, but i like to keep my options open. where and how does my life serve a purpose? happiness isn't eternal so why do we kid ourselves?

let's make this feeling last for 30 minutes. get our money's worth.